Hello there! its been long since i updated my blog.

life as usual, just that i was so frustrated because i had an argument with my mum,

and drama starts*

its no wonder if you ever see my mum flare up smashing things and destroying things.

its a stupid, foolish act.

i mean, she throw and WE have to clean up after her.

damm fedup one, especially when i wasted my time cleaning the damm kitchen just because of what she done and have to prepared for work when i was almost done.

and the reason she flared up was she refused to admit the fact that i am saying.

recently Jetstar is having some promotion and its a one for one deal,

so the flight ticket get real cheap,

and i wanted to go BKK, and i been saying for so many many time,

so i told her, i am going to book the ticket,

when guys say they can't understand girls,

its the same feeling i have toward my mum,

sibei damm one i tell you, was so angry, she could be so calm, etc when i told her,

thn next day threw her temper, say that i din ask her permission when i wanted to go,

i was so fucking angry.

sometimes, i am just tired of saying i have grown up,

how come i don't need her permission to allow me to get a job before i even start any job?

why?

she was angry because i talked back, when she start telling me you know going overseas, all the accidents , all the stranger you don't know what they might do etc.

i mean come on la, even in sg, you have all these people, what a difference even if you go overseas,

plus , all the other people went overseas all came back one piece,

if i go overseas means i will be killed meh.

damm frustrating,

i talked back to her saying, im not asking you to pay what, i paying myself.

this sentence is the spark of the fire. HAHA.

her old fashioned traditional mind is blowing me up,

i don't know whether it is the ego/face.

or she don't like it when i talked back to her.

but i don't think i am saying anything wrong.

she can't respect any decision that i make,

for my parents, whenever i have any ideas, they just shut it off.

you know giving me the negative etc.

and thats when i stop telling them anything.

it doesn't work when they are not listening to you.

what for?

and then she starts going on, i can work, give a lil bit of money, then all the bills etc don't need to pay etc.

and i was actually kinda of upset because, its like for the past few years,

when i work, all my job is usually perm, monthly, so its like every mth earn that few hundred bucks i will also give to her some,

and then she been asking for more n more,

especially if i decided to work alot in my clinic.

she and my dad, my dad knows how much i earn w/o asking me cos he can count the days i work,

so what i get from her is, i shld be keep working n working and give them more $ as much as i can, you know, just work till i die.

and when i just wanted to go overseas for holiday WITHOUT EVEN ASKING HER TO PAY A SINGLE CENT FOR ME,

and she give me that fucking bloody face.

like want to go overseas, i have to make sure i got one big lump sum to shut her mouth thn i can go overseas.

sometimes its very irritating , you know like me holding two jobs now, because working as an intern earning $600 is not enuff for me anymore,

i will not even have enuff to give them,

that time, she say its okay if i dun have the $ to give.

SAY ONLY WHAT, see if i nv give her the $ every mth la, jump already.

so i work at the clinic too on my off days, at least earning bt extra 300 bucks frm there,

its almost/barely enough sometimes, because i do save too.

so actually i am not that rich la, work so much doesn't mean i have alot of $,

the reason why i have to work so much so that after giving them the $, i have somemore left for me to spend.

i am a girl afterall~

HAHA.

and when my colleagues in the hotel get to know bt me, and my other part time job, they was wondering why i am so different from others, because other interns didn't worked before and i have another job.

hardworking la, not like i got any choice.

but it feels good when you earning ur own money and eu dun have to get it from ur parents.

don't need to even like ask for $

i never asked my parents for $ before once i start work,

and i don't envy those who can get $ if they ask frm their parents.

to me, its my own discipline, if i want the $, i earn myself.

but i hate it when parents start to know that i earning more and want me to give more.

next month, i got my bonus somemore from the clinic.

sian lor.

everytime when its coming to th end of the year, you know,

alot of things to pay right,

last year i help to pay for the stupid goddam tv license, thn they say don't ned to pay already right, and return the cheque, it was sometime after i pay .

my dad also didn't return me the cheque, usually i not so calculative uh la, but if they want to pick on these small slightest thing jus becus i want to go holidays, thn i can also be calculative what.

if by law, i shld be taken care of till i am 21 what,

my restricted freedom too, sometimes when people ask me out,

the time restriction is really sighs, work can work till late, go out cannot go out late.

what logic leh.

when i tell my friends, they usually go, cos you girl ma.

SIGHS BIG TIME.

actually i dun mean that i will always go out till wee hours, but i dun need someone to tell me,

why i am still not coming home, you know?

and because of that, we din talk at all,

and then i was trying to find someone to be my partner to go for holidays!

but sometimes its depressing when my friends can't make a decision fast,

by the time one say they can go, my flight already no more le la!

super pissed off with everybody that i asked, because i couldn't ask all at the same time in case if everyone can, thn how am i going to answer for everybody,

so when all of them either reply late or cant go, hais.

so i was angry that i couldn't go la, because the flight was so cheap eh.

if only i got a boyfriend, i dun even need to ask so much, jus go with boyf can already!

but..sadly i don't have.

and i not going to ask any of my friends anymore le lor, i only go with people who are steady or next time. make me so angry.

if i can't go, thn i just save the money first yeah.

afterall, my plan was to go on a short holiday after iip,

and thn to work, and then to prepare my 21st party.

and then probably a short holiday afterthat.

but, i guess.. i need to find a boyfriend first uh. HAHA.

not random but one that i can trust on then:)

btw, as much as i am not calculative, but i do look at people, your know like if i know they are not the type who is always expecting you to pay thn hopefully you forget and won't pay.

i will be super calculative to make sure i get the $ back.

but sometimes it do get me pissed when i have to keep asking my $ back,

and once i know that they are the person who won't pay on time,

wait long long i even lend a single cent to you.

i am straightforward just like that, i have try to be nice polite, and you tell me you pay me when eu get ur pay , thn you totally forgot until i remind you again, and then remind again, and now totally MIA.

I hate this type of people one,

if you read my blog, you know who you are.

everybody is also earning the same amount of $, why is it so hard for you to return someone's money first before you even think of spending on some other thing?

this is something that i cnt understand.

i don't even like to own people anything, if i own you, i pay straight.

if you don't have the $, eu shld know how to manage ur $ so that you don't need people to pay for you everytime.

its not the first time liao eh.

i didn't wanted to blog or tweet because i thought i given you enough face, but you are obviously oblivious,

i don't even think we can hang out as friends if i DO NOT GET MY $ BACK.

because i don't need such a friend like that.